I just deleted a melodramatic post that contains my emotions on how frustrated I am.  The post I drafted for more than an hour reminds me of how big a loser (with capital letter L on the forehead) I am.  When I reread it, I decided it is not how I wanted to see myself.  I have to love myself, just as how God loves me, so I can fully love others too.

Because I am trying hard to be optimistic at all times (oh okay, most of the time), I'll just share some steps that I hope I would make me a better person.  I hope I could commit fully to these things.  Posting this online might make me more responsible and accountable, hahaha!

I was 95% successful on keeping the laptop away when I am home, keeping the cp away is another hurdle.  Read this article: http://www.ibtimes.com/cell-phone-addiction-parents-glued-smartphones-have-more-negative-interactions-their-kids-1560588

As opposed to going to school on time.  My pilosopa nature is going to school on time (8am), which makes me a chronic latecommer. I absolutely, definitely, undeniably hate this!  I have to throw away the latecommer Zhella. 

From my Facebook Notes: https://www.facebook.com/notes/zhella-anne-nisperos/why-we-should-go-home-on-time/341769895607

Hey, I am taking baby steps. Again, I have the kargador type of appetite. This is a huge deal for me. Eventually, I can cut it to no rice, then less/no rice lunch, di ba?!!!

Enough said.

And keep this blog alive.  Lessen the hesitations.  There are a lot of wonderful things to write about.

These are so far few of the promises I wanted to keep. I really do not know how committed I am, I am sorry.  But I will try. I will try. I don't want to go through same frustrations again.